Uni High Gargoyle Staff Blog

Sometimes you’re lost. You’re done. You’re finished. Sometimes there really is no hope and when that time comes you just have to accept defeat. But when is that exactly? When can you throw in the towel? When can you just give up?

I’ve been struggling through school this year. The main the reason is because I’ve lost all motivation to continue working. I’ve always tried to impress people, but at Uni everyone is just as good as I am and now I realized that even if I impress people, nothing really comes from it. Sure, some people will give you a pat on the back, but most people will forget you as quickly as they hear of you.

Maybe it’s just me or maybe it’s just the middle of third quarter when nothing seems worthwhile. I can feel my grades dropping and I get stressed out from doing nothing. What’s wrong with me? Why is this happening? I don’t know where I’m going at the moment and I can’t find the right path.

So when is it right to quit? Not now. In the end, school is for getting an education for a job. The job will provide money and hopefully the money will provide happiness. In the end, things will work out — at least, that’s what I tell myself. At the moment I just have to keep pushing because education is necessary; education isn’t an option. For a better life, I need to be smart. My parents didn’t come all the way to America so I could just slack off.

Although I mention my parents, it’s not about them. They are the coaches — they’ll be there when I need them, they’ll tell me what I need to do and what I’m doing wrong, but in the end, it’s for me. That’s the most important thing, to realize that it is all for me.

When you are losing in a chess game, you could just give up. You could end it all in two seconds. But if there is any hope at all, even if you’ve made tons of mistakes, you should keep going. If you still have a chance, take it. After all, when you’re down, the only way to go is back up.

— Alan Liang